Friday, October 31, 2008

Jeda Dalam Hening

Hening datang mendahului pagi
Kadang dia menyapa dan menitipkan temaram di hati
Kadang dia tinggal sejenak dan sodorkan tanya
... tentang dunia di balik kata “setelah itu”

Hening datang tanpa diduga
Serupa dengan wajah sunyi yang menggantung
Dia hanya duduk di sana...
Membiarkan nyanyiannya mengalun sepanjang malam

Hening datang membawa jeda
Jeda antara masa lalu dan masa depan
Satu masa yang terlindung dari detik-detik yang memburu
Sisipkan nafas baru pada jiwa yang lelah berjalan

Hening datang dalam bayang misteri
Dia seolah-olah bisa membuat kita merasa waktu terhenti
...sejenak... hanya dirinya yang terlihat...
Walau sebenarnya dia tak pernah sendirian

Dengarlah... jangan biarkan matamu terpejam
Ada Seseorang berdiri di balik hening
Seseorang yang menantimu untuk bangkit
Memanggilmu mendekat dan memulai perjalanan yang baru

.....

Hening sepertinya datang tanpa makna
Tapi dia bukan kekosongan
Jika saja kita memandangnya dengan jeli
...dan membiarkan dia berlalu saat jeda itu usai...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Gulingless...

Hiks... Udah 2 malam terlewati di kamar kos baru, tapi ga sukses... Tiap malem susah bobok.. Tadi malem aja kayaknya baru "ilang" jam 00.30an T.T and believe it or not, pagi ini pas harusnya masih bisa bobok, gagal maning gara-gara rumah sebelah dipake buat senam bersama.. Suara instrukturnya yang teriak-teriak cempreng gatau nyampe brapa desibel, blom lagi mereka senamnya pake house music yang disetel kenceng abiez... T.T

Kata cik Landri -yang punya kosku- rumah sebelah emang dipake buat senam bersama tiap hari Senen ama Kamis. Yo... Walahu alam dah kalo libur pas 2 hari itu, ga bisa bangun rada siangan T.T Giliran senamnya dah bubar jam 8an, dah ga bisa bobok part 2 soalnya perut dah laper T.T naseb oh naseb...

Ni gara-gara ga ada guling makanya susah bobok.. Di kosku yang sekarang ga disediain guling. Jadi ga enak tidurnya.. Guleng oh guleng.. aku memang tak bisa lelap tanpa memeluk dirimu T.T

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Learn to Embrace the CHANGE

Right now I’m facing a few core changes in my life... A new season... new city, new dormitory, new job, new people to meet and work with, new things to learn and get used to, everything almost new to me. Even though I have lived in Surabaya before, in my high school and college years, but both of them were located near the city centre and their location were also kind of familiar to me. But in my new environment where I’m living now is a whole new place for me...

Yea... change might not always comfortable (sometimes scary =p), most likely for a kind of stable person like me, but like the words I’ve ever heard, “Change is good” hehehe... and honestly, I’m on my way to embrace those changes. As long as The One who never changes is walking with me, I think I’m gonna be just fine =p

I’m gonna re-write (with a bit of editing) an article by Susan Squellat Florence below, she wrote a great insight about CHANGE:

Life doesn’t always turn out the way we planned. In fact, it almost never does. In work, our relationship, and expectations of how things “should” be... there are changes. We are afraid of change, but it happens anyway. We don’t seek out time of change but it happens anyway. We want to see, know, and understand what is happening to us. We think we can control our life. But ultimately, we can’t.

When we accept that life is full of changes and unknowing times they bring, we move beyond our fear. We will be able to begin a new journey of hope and opennes to what life brings. We grow with change. Times of change help us discover within ourselves a profound strength. We challenge ourselves to become deeper as we learn to live with uncertainty. We become more whole.

Times of change shift our life focus. We will begin to see things as they really are. By being open to new possibilities, we will see more than we’ve ever seen before. We also will see things that are truly important and meaningful to us. 

Change is a place of seeing beyond the life you had planned into new possibilities of what life can be.
Change is a way of growing beyond a person you thought you were into a stronger person you will become.
Change is a time of leaving a safe place where “you know” and entering a strange place where “you don’t know”.

Do not be afraid of change. Remember that the most insightful times are times of change. Within change come the seeds of new life. A dry farm land that had been destroyed by the heat of summer, will eventually grow again after the rain. Like the seasons, our life turns over and over again... Sooner or later, you will understand that life is not only full of changes, but life itself is a change...    
 
I’m so inspired... Eummm... but there are two cool changes, I have a new notebook from my dad =p hehehe... and also a new I-pod shuffle from my dear, beloved IT guys... =p Phewww... hehehe... Now I’m waiting for my I-sat Eco to be activated so I can be (soon) online from my dorm... so I can browsing, reading online articles, make some downloads, chatting, and also blogging!!! Boy, how I miss that last one! Hehehe...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Temporary Offline

I might not have a chance to be online for a while, due to my moving to Surabaya. 2 hari perjalanan di mobil, survei kos-kosan baru, melajarin rute jalan, mudik dulu bentar, ke Surabaya lagi, mulai kerja... phew... a lot of changes and I think I need time to adjust myself and learn new rules and habits. So I still don't know my possibility to get online. But I will be online as soon as I can =p 

However, I have a plan to get online from my new dorm at Surabaya. So I might need your recomendation for the best and the most economic unlimited internet connection =p Which one do you think is best? I have information about IM2 unlimited, but it needs credit card for its payment, I need more practical payment method, if there's another option... Do you have one?

Good Bye - a Story Board

Good bye Jakarta and the busways...

Good bye Meadow Green - Lippo Cikarang... 

Good bye my dormitory...

Good bye my kos-mates (Rosie 'n Berlian)...

Good bye my office - part of my journey here...

Good bye my big bro (kak Marcel)...

Good bye my sis (kak Prima)...

Good bye my IT family...

Good bye IT gals...

Here I walk a neverending story
A story of friendship and teamwork
A story of acceptance and sincerity
A story that gather us all...

Thank you for everything...
I will definitely remember all these memories...
^.^

My Unforgettable Last Day @ Office

Nano-nano.... 
That's how I can describe my feeling today...
Ga nyangka banget mau pisahan aja sampe segitunya...

IT gals yang kompakan pake rok... kita jadi putri feminin sehari... you are all so beautiful with skirts! ^.^ Kapan lagi coba hehehehe... Ga ada yang ngalahin deh hehehe... Viva IT gals!!!
"The last supper" di Pizza Hut yang rame abiezzz...
Sesi foto-foto mulai pagi di ruang animasi sampe siang pas lunch sampe sempet mampir ke danau... foto-fotonya keren... 'n niat bangettt...
Kado sendal doraemon dari Yoel 'n ipod hijau dari semuanya... huaaaa... those are definitely unforgettable farewell presents...
Doa pengutusan 'n pesan-pesan yang bikin terharu...

I definitelly will never forget what you all have done for me...
Thank you IT guys 'n girls... my roommates di ruang akuarium ini...
Thank you for your friendship and support... I'm so deeply touched...

Hiks...
I'm just speechless...
This is beyond what I've thought...

No, I don't wanna say good bye...
We can still keep in touch through SMSes (secara aku pake 3 yang sms gratis hehehe...), email (nah yang ini jangan lupa dah ga pake alamat email outlook kantor lagi yah hehehe...), atau YM... Hopefully siy di sana aku bisa online dari kos juga =p Doain aja yah hehehe...

Thank you so much...
Luv u all... 

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Back For Good

*plesetan dari "Back For Good"nya Take That hehehe...*

I guess now it's time for me to give up
I feel it's time
Got an open door ahead of me 
Got His answer for my eternal wish
Got a fist of pure emotion
Got a mix of thoughts and dreams
Gotta take it... gotta take it and step forward

Whatever I said, I told you the truth so please understand
I just gotta back for good
Whenever you're blue just call or YM and I'll be there
I just gotta back for good

Gotta back... gotta back...
Gotta back for good...
I gotta back for good

Unaware but underlined I figured out this surprise
It's truly Him...
And in the corner of my mind I had a prayer for you
So please just don't worry
In the midst of separation it's hard to say this to you
I'll come back... to the "home" where I belong

Whatever I said, I told you the truth and I mean it
I just gotta back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the list and I'll fix it
You'll be right and understood

Gotta back... gotta back...
Gotta back for good...
I gotta back for good

And we will say good bye... this time is forever
Keep connecting and forever we'll be friends
Keep the sweet memories
Coz we'll seldom see each other again

Whatever I said, I told you the truth and I mean it
I just gotta back for good
Whenever
you're blue just call or YM and I'll be there
I just gotta back for good

Gotta back... gotta back...
You see I gotta back for good...

I guess now it's time, that I come back for good

Good Bye Casual Style...

Hiks... selamat tinggal casual style... T_T 

Di kantor yang baru ternyata kudu pake kemeja Senen sampe Jumat... T-shirt berkerah ga boleh... Trus kudu pake sepatu, no sendal... Baru boleh pake T-shirt Sabtu doang (Sabtu masuk setengah hari)... Oh good bye casual style... Now I just have to work as a "real" employee T_T ...tapi masih untung siy ga harus pake blazer ama rok hihihihi... masih bisa pake celana jeans =p

Ini baru dapet bocoran dari salah satu cewek Gabindo (ternyata dulu kita pernah gabung di komunitas yang sama... it was long long ago! Can you imagine? Pas aku masih SMA tuh! Ga kenal-kenal amat siy, cuman saling tau aja hehehe... Tapi mending lah ada yang tau, daripada strangers semua hehehe...) Hufff.... it means I have to buy several shirts and a shoes before I can start to work in my new office... hufff...

Yap, but it's okay... a little adjustment... well, actually, because I'm a casual style lover... it feels like a big adjustment... pheww... but okay... I'm on it...

Hiks hiks...
Good bye casual style... 

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Two More Days...

22nd October will be my last day at my current office... my last day as Jawaban.Com's crew... my last day in this journey before I step in to the next one... before I go back to Surabaya...

This morning my dorm-mate asked me how I feel about my last days here, I told her I just didn't know what to say. My feelings are mixed up... so it's kinda hard to find the right words to express things in my heart. 

Last Saturday I went to Jakarta, to Plaza Semanggi and CL for the last time... Walking around CL with Kezia (a friend from Malang who worked in Jakarta)... then we buy terang bulan (or martabak manis) with cheese, chocolate and peanuts near her dorm, ate together, talked a lot, and sleep... I spent my night (the last meeting) with her at her dorm...

Yesterday I have packed my clothes and stuffs... I just have to pack a bit more later and tomorrow. Hmmm... So many things had happened while I was here... So many memories... and there is an open road in front of me... waiting for me to walk on it... a new office, new dorm, new job, new colleagues, new roads to learn and remember, new habbits... hoah... so many changes I have to get used to, for sure...

Like my mom said, it's really feel a bit uncomfortable when we have to make some (or many) changes, especially when they happen in the core areas of life like what I'm about to experience. There are new rules at the new office, new habbits at the new dorm, new roads to reach places (I really need a big help in this =p usually I need a bit longer time to learn and remember the paths and routes =p)... phewww.... yeap, like Jordin Sparks sang, I just have to take this one step at a time... because it's a new challenge... and a new chance...

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Mencari Soulmate "Tanya"

Mimpi...
Kau mau pergi ke mana?
Tolong jangan menghilang bersama keindahanmu...
Jangan hapuskan jejakmu karena kerumitan hidup...

Mimpi...
Benarkah engkau hanya sahabat anak kecil?
Apakah kedewasaan akan selalu membungkam dan menghanguskanmu?
Kau tahu? Banyak orang telah mengakui itu...

Mimpi...
Belakangan ini suaramu terkadang menghilang...
Nyanyianmu tak sekeras dulu lagi...

Buatku... kau telah menjadi bagian hidup...
Haruskah engkau tersisih hanya karena tuntutan usia?
Bukankah engkau masih bertalian dengan kreativitas dan kebebasan?
Haruskah tanggung jawab mendesak kalian untuk meninggalkan tahta? 

Mimpi...
Jangan beranjak dulu...
Dengarkan sejenak harapan bersajak untukmu...

"Aku tahu tentang seseorang dan legendanya...
Dimana impian dan kehidupan nyata melebur dalam cerita keabadian
Kau hanya perlu menautkan dirimu dalam serat-serat doa...
...dan menenun jalan setapak bersama Penciptamu..."

Mimpi...
Jangan biarkan jiwamu menguap...
Tinggallah di sini... bersamaku...
Biarkan lengan kokohNya menjagamu...

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Counting Down The Days

7 more days and I'll be gone... 
...gone to another place
...gonna live in another space

The memories are still remain
I just don't want to remember them right now
...cause surely I'm gonna cry
So better leave them nicely in the corner of my mind

Time is running so fast... 
I'm not sure if I can still count on my days
I just want to spend these moments so well
And move on without any regret

...tick tock... tick tock... tick tock...


PS: "Tinggal sesaat lagi dan kamu tidak akan melihat aku lagi, tetapi kamu "melihat" aku, sebab aku akan online dan kamu pun juga online" ...hehehe...

Monday, October 13, 2008

Tentang Tattoo

Emang kalo pake tattoo kesannya "nakal" yah?
Hihihihi... lagi iseng pake tattoo temporary, sticker gituh, yang cuman bertahan 3 hari... Tapi dah dapet beberapa komentar yang gimana gitu hihihihi...

I always like butterfly, mengingatkan tentang proses menunggu dan juga perubahan yang tetap terjadi walau mungkin kita nggak bisa lihat dari luar... that's inspiring...

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Cuci Otak

Dari malem sampe pagi... ya ga terus-terusan siy, diselingin bobok hehehe...  

Ceritanya baru nyadar kalo ternyata aku punya motivasi yang egois... aku pengen ambil cuti biar bisa resign lebih cepet... Itu legal siy... tapi aku pengen resign lebih cepet karna aku cuman mikirin kepentinganku sendiri. Aku belon dapet kos di Surabaya, sementara kudu masuk kerja di sana kalo ga akhir Oktober ya paling lambat 1 November, coz posisiku di sana itu as the only one uploader 'n some kind of editor, jadi mereka butuh aku as soon as possible. Trus sopir juga kudu dikasitau secepat mungkin tanggal kapan mamaku nyewa dia buat jemput aku ke sini dari rumah. Trus aku jadi panik ngebayangin ntar kalo di Surabaya dah kerja di daerah situ gimana kalo mau kemana-mana, secara itu daerah perumahan... mo naek motor juga belon gape bener, motor yang di rumah berat banget... trus di sekitar sana juga kemaren pas survei kok ga ada orang-orang jual makanan, gimana kalo mo makan... dll dll... jadi pusinggggg T_T  

Gini nih kalo orang stabil diadepin ama begitu buanyakkk perubahan di waktu yang bersamaan 'n singkat banget waktu adaptasinya... jadi korslet... T_T  

Jadi niatku aku mau resign lebih cepet biar bisa cari kos dulu di Surabaya, bisa masih punya waktu buat adaptasi, dll... jadi ga terlalu shock gitu... Tapi aku disadarin kalo aku udah egois... sementara kantorku kan masih perlu aku buat ngebimbing penggantiku (which is kemaren baru diinterview 'n ditest, belon dipastiin diterima apa ga dll...) 'n masih nunggu beberapa kandidat lagi... huah mumetttt... yang bisa aku pastiin cuman kerjaan reguler, coz aku belakangan lembur buat ngebut, sementara masih ada 1 project yang belon kelar coz ngelibatin beberapa orang laen.  

Tapi tadi pagi dapet banyak peneguhan firman... ini emang latian imanku ama Dia... aku kudu kelarin tanggung jawabku selama di sini dulu sebelon cabut... jeda waktu pindahannya emang dikit... 'n secara manusia aku kuatir banget bisa apa enggak semuanya berjalan baek dalam waktu yang sesingkat itu... But again, Dia ingetin aku banyak, aku perlu percaya penuh ama Dia 'n ga memproses semuanya cuman dengan memperhitungkan kekuatanku sendiri, coz I'm not walking alone, but I'm part of His bigger plan... 

So ya udah aku repent deh... sekarang tinggal praktek...  

Phewww... Jiayou ganbatteeeee!!!!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Tentang Resiko

"Menyeberang itu memang lebih beresiko daripada jalan memutar di darat... tapi juga lebih cepat nyampe..."

Quoted from kak Marcel's words... Dia emang gape deh ngeluarin kata-kata yang sepintas tuh down to earth banget, tapi dalemmmm hehehe... Thanx kak... =p He's my "brother" at my current office... We have just talked about our dreams and our current condition... Deep conversation =p

Tu kena banget tuh ke aku hehehe... secara pikiranku lagi ngebayangin banyak resiko 'n tantangan yang bakal aku hadapin beberapa langkah ke depan. It takes the guts and courage indeed... and most of all, my faith to Him...

Certainty

If He had already guaranteed our salvation for eternity...
(a.k.a. our future for eternal time)

Then...
It's just a piece of cake for Him to arrange our future for temporary time while we're in this world...

Don't you think so?


PS: ...this one has punched me right in the spot God =p 

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Panik Mode On

Haduh T_T pikiranku kudu dicalm-down nih...

Barusan coba telpon calon kandidat kos di Surabaya tapi ga ada yang angkat... looks like they haven't returned from Lebaran holiday... Trus aku telpon ko Hadi (personalia-nya Gabindo) udah dengan nada panik... soalnya ada beberapa hal yang aku liat kemaren tu aku bingung banget... ada lah... cuman ga bakal aku tulis di sini hehehe... menyangkut kebutuhan pokok pribadi lah hehehe... Sampe dia tenang-tenangin gitu, nyuruh aku telpon lagi aja, kali emang yang punya kos masih liburan...

Huahhh... asli... sometimes I get so easily panicked when I face new place, new routes to learn... plus... kayaknya aku kudu mulai blajar naek motor 'n ngapalin jalan nih T_T Huaaaaaa.... semuanya baru 'n semuanya butuh adaptasi secara bersamaan T_T gimana ga jadi panik T_T Lha wong kalo ngapalin jalan aja aku minimal butuh waktu beberapa hari... Phewww... Ini masih belon nemu kos juga... jadi panik kuadrat deh... Sampe ditanyain Delly mau pisahan dimana aku ga kepikiran...

Ya I just need time to calm down... I know I will find itu kos-kosan by His guide... cuman ini emang proses yang aku kudu jalanin buat belajar lebih percaya lagi aja ama Dia... belajar terus berjalan dengan bergantung ama tuntunan tanganNya walo mataku dibebet pake kain (kebayang kayak game itu hehehe... abis perasaan mirip deh...). 

So hectic... antara kerjaan di sini belon kelar, ada project belon kelar... plus urusan di sana juga masih blon ketauan gimananya T_T pheww... ok calm down, do the best 'n just trust Him... 


Dicari: Kos di Surabaya

Urgent Request...
Siapa yang tau diharapkeun banget buat ngasih info soal kos-kos-an di daerah Kutisari Indah Selatan Surabaya yah... atau daerah sekitarnya... urgently needed niy...

Libur lebaran kemaren kan mudik... sekalian pas balik nyari kos buat ntar akhir Oktober di Surabaya, tapi pada sepi. Alamat kos yang dikasitau orang kantor baru juga rumahnya lagi kosong... lagi pada liburan kali yah... Makanya sambil cari juga  nih... kali ada yang tau...