Am I Doing Wrong?

Sometimes I just wanna be a "regular" person, not a person who has (if I may say) high "degree" in a certain community... Coz that "degree" is like a burden to me, especially when there's a real event from this community. With a "degree" like mine, I often feels that people have too big hopes on me... big hopes that I think I can't fulfill...

This morning there's someone said that I shouldn't do something that I've done. I can understand his point of view and his (and maybe other's) disappointments on my past action... But I've arranged that plan with my friend long time before, I just can't suddenly cancelled it. Okay... Maybe the point is not about it... The reality is I just wanna be a "regular" person...

Am I doing wrong becoz I just wanna be free? Coz in this community I can't be myself... becoz of that "burden"... I can't express what I feel and what I thought freely... I can't have fun like when I'm with people outside this community... Am I being self-centered? I just wanna have casual friends where I can be myself... where I can just blend in and communicate without any "burden"... Coz in this place I really wish for a second "family"... since I don't have any family or relatives... Am I doing wrong? Is it wrong to have a wish like that?       

Sure, I will help and I will still be in this community... I just poured out what I thought and felt... Hhhh... Ciayo Fay....